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Welcome Back home, and it sure feels lovely to be back

Well many of you..whoever you are, may think i'm talking about going back home....Actually i'm talking about being on my blogg again.

Its been century's since I last saw those beautifully walled pink petals and that green bulging letters that makes me delight in its sight. I sure missed this special place I call my home...you since home is wherever you make it and wherever youre heart goes, I guess my home is right here :D

Aaaaanyway, ive had quite a few developments over these past 6 months i have been MIA...although im not really in the mood to discuss it...I just want to be my own therapist right now.



So I was chilling in a taxi...and these are the words that murmured into my mind..

I cant remember the last time I was happy about focusing all my energy into a task.
I cant remember when last I last wrote something ingenious without feeling creatively stifled.
I cant remember a time I did something ingenious within limitations...and still broke boundaries.
I cant honestly remember a day when I just woke up and smiled about the day ahead of me.
I cant remember a time when i was passionate about something and had something I wanna wake up for everyday. I mean sure a degree is worth waking up for, but if I have zero passion for what I'm living out now, whats the use??

I yearn live live again, to touch my invisible walls of possibility and to taste the sweetness of life in the air.
I yearn to live for more than mundane and deadlines.
I'm tired of struggling and fighting for a dream I don't see myself in.
I miss that little girl who painted pictures of tangible dreams and effortless love.
I miss her dearly, and I know she's there in the background screaming out to be heard and to be lived out...but somehow I keep suppressing her with this routine.
Her dreams and her true self screams out to me everyday, but I tell her to be quite because this essay needs to be done.
I tell her to be patient everyday, and that soon she will see why she had to be still for 3 years.






9:11 AM

The Pursuit of Tre' Melvin and his commentary

Bitches aint shit but hoes and triks...bitch bitches aint shit but hoes and tricks....

I just can get enough of this man...Edward Lee Melvin "Tre' Melvin" is thee hottest hott potatoe i have seen in my life. I just dont understand how he could be soo perfect....He's funny, down to Earth, the realist nigger i know and he's a philanthropist. I just can get enough of him...just thinking about the fact that i watched all 99 video's of his in 2 days makes it really bad. Then to top it all of, i get all giddy thinking im gonna watch Tre' on Tuesday and Friday...oh gosh i love him...

Fine guys, don't believe me...see for yourself and watch Tis is a commentary http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0aRktXDXBf4



3:47 PM

Its beeeeen wayeeee tooo long, and i do miss my blog now

My journey since the last visit.

Oh my gosh, soo much has happened since the last time i was here..firstly i went to soo many parties it was craaazy. I went on a full weekend binge that got me wanting to stay indoors until i die. It was a great experience though, but it was also another experience that revealed to me what was important in my life and what i actually wanted from it.

That weekend just made me realse how much i like being an underdog...im that kid that wants to be seen when she wants to be seen...im that kid that likes taking the back entrance, away from the grand entrance...im that loud mouth kid that everybody likes (well...you always get those bitchy exceptions), and im that kid who likes being me. Ive reached that point where i know i can be that kid..that crew kid, that "you
cant sit with us" kid, that "im such a hot shot and i know it" kid. I know i can be that kid if i really wanted to...but you know what...i actually dont. I just realised how plain jane aint that bad at all...but i could never be caught dead in plain Jane's clothing (blaaaargh).

That weekend taught me the value of whats valuable, the value of time, the value of people you surround yourself with. In a big way, it taught me the value of life and where you want to go. Many a times i used to feel like i was not in control of my own life and the decision i  made (at times i still do), but i realised that who ever i let into my life and allow to penetrate my decisions...is actually my decisions.
Its true when they say, the  people you hang around with are a reflection of who you are...and its really hard trying to make sure that the reflection is a true reflection of who you are.

The other thing i learnt is that friendship should never be circumstantial...in a perfect world..
sometimes you may want them to last forever, and then they don't. Its thee most painful experience to see that one person whom you loved and adored soo dearly, turn into a stranger.

Bottom line to this whole weekend story is that you make yourself who you want to be, and you encompass yourself with external factors that will shape you into the person you will become.

#Feirce and love





2:45 PM

About a month later..daam ive been a stranger

After a long while...I write:

 Dear Lady...

 After a long while of forever trying to lie to yourself about trying to get better and be a better person, you still end up settling for second...third...or even second-last best. 
Why do you keep on doing that to yourself...you deserve more, and you shouldn't afraid to be more, and to want to be more. 

 What is it hu? Tell me darling, why is it that you feel you aint never gonna be good enough for that pedistole...is it their status, their overbearing persona, their own savage will to succeed.

 Well you better sit down and look deep within yourself, and figure out what is it you really want...do you want fame, do you want the spotlight, do you want to be thee fashionista, the feminist? or corporate success....what do you want?

 Yes i know, you may not have that great of a choice in what you want, but i do know your not stupid, and i sure as hell know you can do better that what your giving out now. I know its there somewhere, an i know you've done it before...its time you started believing in  your self, and actually taking those steps you've been dying to take. Stop being that wall that's closing up all your dreams and your opportunities.
Now listen hunny girl, you deserve all that is suppose to be given to you...but your only gonna get them if you put in the work, the heart, the blood, the sweat and the tears. Bitch you gonna cry, your gonna want to give in and i know your gonna want to sleep...but this aint the time to.
Its tie you realised why your here, and what your here for...cause i sure do know the Lord Jesus put you here and brought you this far for a reason.

 Now go on and climb that pedistole, cause once your up there, you'll know that no one else put you there but yourself...and remember that it can never be instantly attained...you have to remember that you have to work 10 times harder then everybody else...cause you know you aint got jack shit backing you up.

 You know what you gotta do...now its time you put your brain in gear and your back into motion...and dont you dare get distracted!

 Now go out their...go forth and conquer

Love Sasha Feirce...PS! She's in their, and she gone make it through ohkay. 



7:19 AM

...Read all about it..

You've got the words to change a nation
but you're biting your tongue
You've spent a lifetime stuck in silence
afraid you'll say something wrong
If no one ever hears it how we gonna learn your song
So come on, come on
Come on, come on.
You've got a heart as loud as lions
so why let your voice be tamed
Baby we're a little different
there's no need to be ashamed
You've got the light to fight the shadows
so stop hiding it away
Come on, come on
I wanna sing
I wanna shout
I wanna scream 'til the words dry out.
So put it in all of the papers, I'm not afraid
They can read all about it
Read all about it
oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oooh
oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh ohoh
At night we're waking up the neighbours
while we sing away the blues
Making sure that we're remembered
Yeh, cos we all matter too
If the truth has been forbidden
then we're breaking all the rules
So come on, come on
Come on, come on
Let's get the TV and the radio
to play our tune again
It's 'bout time we got some air play of our version of events
There's no need to be afraid
I will sing with you my friend
Come on, come on
I wanna sing
I wanna shout
I wanna scream 'til the words dry out
So put it in all of the papers, I'm not afraid
They can read all about it
Read all about it
oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oooh
oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh ohoh
Yeah we're all wonderful, wonderful people
So when did we all get so fearful ?
Now we're finally finding our voices
So take a chance, come help me sing this
Yeah we're all wonderful, wonderful people
So when did we all get so fearful ?
Now we're finally finding our voices
Just take a chance, come help me sing this
I wanna sing
I wanna shout
I wanna scream 'til the words dry out
So put it in all of the papers, I'm not afraid
They can read all about it
Read all about it
oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
I wanna sing
I wanna shout
I wanna scream 'til the words dry out
So put it in all of the papers, I'm not afraid
They can read all about it
Read all about it, oh
4:36 PM

Being beautifully and wonderfully made...my dear sisters

Happy International Women's Day to all of ma sisters, my mothers, my aunts, my daughters, my BOSSES, my leaders, my followers, my nurtures and my fellow fighters....

 Hope all of you women reminisce  on this day about how beautiful and wonderful you all are...you are not too tall, short, thin, thick, light , dark or any other thing that might want to be altered....
You were fearfully and beautifully made in the image of God..and you better believe you #run this world



8:14 AM

But I do love being bad...its just so much easier than doing good

I feel judged...

Judged by the courts of society playing their holyer than though shiit...
Dude, this is my life...Mylie Cyurus you said it gurl
...Its my house we can do what we want to, its my mouth I can say what I want to.
 Judge me if you want man...I know I cant change...

6:36 PM
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