Its beeeeen wayeeee tooo long, and i do miss my blog now

My journey since the last visit.

Oh my gosh, soo much has happened since the last time i was here..firstly i went to soo many parties it was craaazy. I went on a full weekend binge that got me wanting to stay indoors until i die. It was a great experience though, but it was also another experience that revealed to me what was important in my life and what i actually wanted from it.

That weekend just made me realse how much i like being an underdog...im that kid that wants to be seen when she wants to be seen...im that kid that likes taking the back entrance, away from the grand entrance...im that loud mouth kid that everybody likes (well...you always get those bitchy exceptions), and im that kid who likes being me. Ive reached that point where i know i can be that kid..that crew kid, that "you
cant sit with us" kid, that "im such a hot shot and i know it" kid. I know i can be that kid if i really wanted to...but you know what...i actually dont. I just realised how plain jane aint that bad at all...but i could never be caught dead in plain Jane's clothing (blaaaargh).

That weekend taught me the value of whats valuable, the value of time, the value of people you surround yourself with. In a big way, it taught me the value of life and where you want to go. Many a times i used to feel like i was not in control of my own life and the decision i  made (at times i still do), but i realised that who ever i let into my life and allow to penetrate my decisions...is actually my decisions.
Its true when they say, the  people you hang around with are a reflection of who you are...and its really hard trying to make sure that the reflection is a true reflection of who you are.

The other thing i learnt is that friendship should never be circumstantial...in a perfect world..
sometimes you may want them to last forever, and then they don't. Its thee most painful experience to see that one person whom you loved and adored soo dearly, turn into a stranger.

Bottom line to this whole weekend story is that you make yourself who you want to be, and you encompass yourself with external factors that will shape you into the person you will become.

#Feirce and love